No, that isn't a snake or rope laying on my back. That is my hair.
In the above picture you see me bent over in a creek bed that is slowly beginning to disappear for its winter months. This is the creek that I spent ten years of my life going to, swimming in, and reading beside. I left this place in November of 2007. Today was the first day I had been back there since.
My friend, Summer, and I went for a walk to where I used to live today. Despite our fluent conversation, constant laughs, and talk of what the future might hold- I couldn't help but feel the weight of sadness sitting on my eyelashes.
That is my old home. The house that my Dad built, and the house that my Mother decided to sell while I was out of town. I
detest the people that own it now. You see all those weeds in that picture? That was once a forest of Oak trees, Mayapples, and Dogwoods. They cut it down, and let it turn into that. You don't even want to see the back yard...
When I first met the woman who now owns it, she told me how she hated the neighbors. People whom I grew to love. And she also said she chopped down all those weeds along the back stone wall outside the patio.
Bitch, those were my fucking rose bushes I had for six years... They also plan to fill in our old pond. She called it "hazardous" for her animals. Which happened to be two fat retrievers. I could understand if she had children, but for dogs? There are 16 inch long catfish in there, woman!
But as Summer and I walked, the discussion of the place came up. I vented my anger to her with the goal set out in my mind that one day I would buy that house back and finish it up the way my parents had planned it to be before their marriage fell apart.
Call me Country, if you will.
Question of the Entry:Have you ever lost anything that you sincerely loved?
-CrazyKey123
No, that isn't a snake or rope laying on my back. That is my hair.
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I have, actually. Unfortunately, the answer to this is naive, and probably on every cliche board ever. Her name was Ashleigh though, and she WAS my best friend. I guess people move on and grow up, but I never thought I'd have to say goodbye to her, especially while we're both still alive. Asi es vida, I suppose.
I'm sure this is going to sound stupid, but I used to have a secret cat. He crept up to my window every night, and I let him in, petted and played with him, then fell asleep with him curled on my hip. He always hopped out my window every morning before I woke up. I loved that cat so much, and one day my dad accidentally ran over him. I was crushed and it was so much harder because I couldn't tell anyone why I was so sad.
Sorry about the long story. I know how you feel though.
Some people don't realize the true nature of where they move into, until they are informed of the nature of the land. There was roses, catfish, and everything that made your home, and they made it a little more close to city living.
I can't ever imagine having that kind of mistreatment to something so sentimental.
My first crush passed away in a car accident just before he turned 16.
Two years later, my one of my best friends died in another car accident a week after she turned 18.
I kinda miss both of them... a lot.
Yes...my old house actually. I grew up in that house. My childhood was in that house. It's still in that house. We moved out of it in November of '02. I haven't seen it since. It isn't but 10 minutes from my current apartment, but I can't look at it. I'll get mad...really, really mad. I left that house unwillingly. Some day, mark my words, it'll be my house again.
I miss my old house too. I only live there 10years, buy I grew up there and it has so many memories for me.
Leave it to homeowners who dont have a fscvking clue what they bought, nor what to do with it.
I lost my first kitty!
I was horribly shy when I was little, so I relied on my cat a lot for comfort. One day, though, she disappeared and never came back :(
*Le sigh* I don't know what happened to her. But I sure hope she didn't get abducted by some horrible people that would plant weeds where oak trees used to be.
That's a shame about the old house. I don't care for the current owners of my childhood home either. Assholes have a trailer parked in the grass in the front yard which destroys all the landscaping in that section. Coincidentally, that house had a creek in the backyard that I loved as well.
@AThousandTimesIveFailed - I'm really sorry to hear this.
Man. I just can't imagine.
That's a really lovely house. I kinda want one like that. I hope you can get it back. I'm sure it will be amazingly beautiful if/when you do return everything to the way it was.
And as for me, yes, I did lose something that I sincerely loved, but I'm okay with it.
Actually yeah, you and I both have something in common. We used to have THE most awesome woods behind our house. It already had trails made in it and everything, and it had a little creek running down the middle that had some small fish in it. We used to walk our dogs back there all the time, as well as ride 4-wheelers and fish. I never thought that they'd tear down such a beautiful piece of land to put housing in, but they did. I wish I had those woods back, some of my most fond memories were made back there.
@Chicagochild87 - @breakfreely - @DBF21 - Thank you all for recommending. I appreciate it babes. :)
@BlackSunshine7 - It stings a lot, especially since it's the house that my own Dad built. The driveway is probably the worst part of it all though. You barely tell where it's at from all the weeds and grass. The place looks like a haunted mansion now.
@DarthChrisious - It seems we have the same goal in that aspect. It's good to know I'm not alone in my views. Thanks for commenting. :)
@leeleekicksass - 10 years or 1 year- it doesn't matter. If you get attached, then it's going to be apart of your life no matter what.
@reallifedemo - @willow_ann209 - It seems we have a few cat lovers. ;) But in all honestly, I know what you mean. I have an interesting story in the same aspects to your few sentenced stories... Maybe I'll blog about it one day.
@spiraledflaw - Wow, they have an RV sitting next to the driveway as well. They keep better care of that thing than they do the actual house.
@DBF21 - Thanks, doll. I took the pictures with my phone so they weren't of great quality or anything, but they proved my point. :)
@cApNhOwDy - Yeah, same here. We had a trail in our front yard through the woods that I used to ride my bike through when I was around the age of seven. It's weird to me that my younger brother (who is now 8) won't get to experience that like I did.
I have a couple of possessions back in Ireland that I really miss.
" I couldn't help but feel the weight of sadness sitting on my eyelashes. " - I really liked that line, lass.
A nice dream to reclaim the house - I hope your dream comes true... My folks sold the house I grew up in when I was in HS to build a new one not far from it. Even now when I go to visit I try to check it out... It must be on its 10th owner by now. The blue spruce my dad planted has been cut down and the color of the siding has changed several times. This last year the patio was enclosed to make a sun room. In my mind's eye I can still recall how it looked back in 1974....
@flann00 - What kind of possessions?
@allison82mckinley - "Oh and they are pouring salt in your wounds." I couldn't have said it any better. -hugs-
@murisopsis - 1974? That's quite the time ago. I'm sorry for your loss, doll.
so sorry about that. sounds like a big mess of a person to do that to a pretty place.
I cant stand when people wipe out wildlife habitat. Why do people build thier houses in woods and end up cutting all the trees down and bitching about mosquitoes! I get sick to my stomach when I see that shit. I have had nightmares of people cutting our woods down.
wow I know how you feel. I grew up when I was younger in this house that I honestly loved. It's the background for my favourite childhood memories. But my parents decided to sell it during their divorce,because it was one less hassle.I would never buy it later though, because I don't think I would want to live there in the future. I commend your enthusiasm to restore the area though,that's a wonderful idea,and I really think you should go through with it :)
Oh.....I hear ya. The house that I grew up in, in South Africa has been devided up into 4 flats.....totally breaks my heart...and that was like.....25 years ago!!!!!
I share your rage...and your sadness.